Thursday, July 28, 2016
Thursday, February 11, 2016
The Final Leg
The Triathlon Final Leg
Part III
The Sprint Ladies final leg...
Eating my banana and hydrating
felt loving to me while I was walking over to the start of the last leg of this
triathlon. I still hadn’t realized what I was about to encounter. Immediately
the steep, long, hill that I needed to conquer came into view. The reality was sobering. My vision of this part of the race was flat
along the reservoir bank. It wasn’t anything close to what I imagined. I needed to persevere going up the hill and
reach the halfway point at the reservoir, so I could turn around, and then head
down, toward the finish line. Going this distance uphill was a total surprise,
and the most challenging to me, both mentally and physically.
At the beginning of the ascent,
I couldn’t imagine anything but putting one foot in front of the other. My head
was in my music, and my legs were moving. I continued with my mantra of motion,
“Just keep moving,” and convincing myself walking up the steep hill at any pace
was loving to me. Then my doubts sunk in, and I questioned if I could make it.
As
I received the revitalizing energy from participants and volunteers, and heard
the words of encouragement–– “You are doing great,” “Keep it up”–– I knew I could make it. Soon I realized that I too needed to go
beyond thanking them for their encouragement. I began sharing positive comments
with others. The invigorating banter was
becoming natural and my legs churned and moved with that encouragement. The
energy radiated in both directions. My
adrenaline was flowing. I knew I could accomplish my own personal summit with radiating
joy and with the self-care mantra of this is loving to me. When I reached the halfway point, I knew a finish was doable as I could now turn around, head down the hill I had just gone up.
When I saw the
finish line ahead, I started to jog. A surge of personal celebration gave me energy. I was basking in the
awesomeness of knowing I would be completing my goal. I radiated an internal glow. Hearing the
cheers of my eleven comrades waiting for me at the finish line will always be etched in my recollection of this special
day. I became so inspired by my group. I raised my thumb in
acknowledgement and sped up my jog. The energy from these women permeated the
crowd. The announcer feeling the energy of my support group asked on the loud
speaker:
“Who is this
finishing with her own wonderful cheering section?”
She looked up
my name and age, from my number and shared over the loud speaker,
“Merril
Boruchin Spielman, age sixty-six, from Manitou Springs.”
My heart was soaring. She also informed the
crowd that I had finished all three events, and more applause and cheers
erupted A stranger, possessing a camera with a long lens, snapped many pictures
of me as I crossed the finish line.
COWABUNGA! I had done it! I
completed the goals of honoring my husband, finishing the race, and staying in
a mode that was loving to me through out the event. I am in charge of
my changes––my life. I astonished myself. I did it. It was amazing. I
completed a triathlon.
Me, crossing the finish line!
After the race group picture with our medals! We had 100% completion
Yet despite my
elation, I looked around the crowd and realized that I had
one great regret about this triathlon. That regret was not sharing with my
daughter, Shira Spielman, that I had entered the race. I was worried that if I
told her, she would come and cheer me on. I might not have had the emotional strength
to quit if I needed too. I was worried I would tough it out so she would be
proud. This was my issue and not hers. She should have been one of the first to
be told.
A
lesson learned; self-disclosure builds trust. This lesson and wisdom earned did
not detract from my personal satisfaction of a dream becoming a reality, well
done. My spirit was feeling its own personal standing ovation. My heart soared
in joy and amazement.
So as 2016 continues along, I invite you to
find that thing you would like to do that will bring on a celebration for you,
a dream well done, so you too can feel that personal standing ovation And ask
yourself: How can I be more loving to me?
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